COVID

As I sit through yet another lockdown, I thought best to write about it.

This situation is catastrophic for our economy, our health, both physical and mental and just all around life changing.

The first lockdown was extremely difficult for all. I think of elderly people, parents, families etc. I also think of all of those who lost their jobs, had to close shop, the financial burden is immense.

I am extremely fortunate to have kept my job. I feel guilty even to complain that this is hard.

The first months were hard emotionnally due to many factors such as isolation, anxiety and because my rock, Zooey suddenly passed in my arms. I think of her all the time. As I write this, my eyes are tearing up. She and Milo have been by my side every day since the breakup. I dont even mean figuratively, but physically. They both spent every day stuck by my side. Nighttime was even more cuddle time, as they slept in my bed, next to me.

Zooey would spend every waken moment close to me. She helped me through rough days. She made me laugh and smile. When she passed, the sadness that I felt after he left, came rushing back. The isolation from the confinement was even more intense after she passed.

Entering this next wave reminds me of that sadness. I can’t speak for families, single parents etc. I can only speak for me. How hard it was at times. How lonely it’s been at times. Having someone to spend time with during this crisis is something extremely beneficial for ones mental health. After living with someone for as long as I had; coming home to an empty house has been harder than anticipate. I miss falling asleep next to someone. Discussing my days, watching a movie, eating a meal; these are all things I took for granted and now miss.

This next wave is crucial, as it will set the tone for the rest of the year, and the following. I can’t spend the next months confined to my house alone. Mine and everybody’s mental health will be affected. Again, I think of all those that are financially struggling and my heart aches for them.

We are all struggling. No matter what our situation is; it’s extremely hard on all of us. I only ask one thing. Do value spousal and family time. I’ll value my quiet time. I’ll have a special thought for families, single parents. We are all in this together and must realize this.

I’ll remind myself of how amazing Zooey was, I’ll give many kisses to Milo and keep hoping I’ll share my bed with someone deserving once this crisis is something of the past,

Stay safe, keep smiling and embrace what you have ❤️